Thats what friends are for.

The only picture we took & I'll definitely treasure it!

I'm extremely glad that you did well this time round! :) Don't worry about tomorrow, everything is gonna be alright! All the best for your future endeavors! & I appreciate this 1 year. Thanks a lot for when shit happens I know you're the one I can turn to. Hahahaha! Love you girl! 

Restless day 4

And thats...

Will be back tonight.

I need some sleep.

Mimi's over at my place. 

Kiki knows how to share.

So cute.

Love

Awezome day 3!

Hehe! 

I had a awezome day with my sis today! Went to Bugis Street to shop. WAHAHAHA! Bugis leh. You won't see me at Bugis Street one lor. I hate that place. But surprisingly, I agree to go there with my sis! Anyways, she bought a cardigan and I bought a lace shirt. Seriously, there's nothing to buy there leh! Next stop is to Iluma. Worst. Parco next for dinner. 

NYDC! 

Yummy hot choc!

Meatball spag! 

Walked around Parco after our dins. & back to Yishun. Went night market to buy tea eggs and cup corn. Bought myself a Hello Kitty bedtime slippers. Bused home.

I realised, my sis and I can really bitch quite a lot. Love her to bits. It was a short and awezome day spent! TEEHEE!

Before I end this post, I really want to stress on that I NEED SOME SLEEP. Never in my life did I ever encounter this stupid insomnia thingy. Now I can fully understand my mom's plight and many others who had this insomnia thingy. It's really a torture. The next morning you wake up, you're like a walking zombie. So dead and restless. Worst thing is, you can't fucking get to sleep! Why in this world will this "insomnia" ever exist!

I look like this when I woke up on Friday. The whole night I'm battling to sleep. Battling to sleep leh! WTH! And, Kiki's sleeping like a fucking pig la! Make me envy him for that moment lor!

Give me some sleep tonight. :( I look like a ghost now. I need yang ming jiu. LOL!

Whatever la!

I can feel the zzzzz monster kicking in. Hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight.

Tata~

Not so boring day 2

*Edited*

Will be back tonight. 

Gonna go bathe and meet cy.

Sayo~

***

So our initial plan was to meet at NP's starbucks. But who knows, when I board the bus, I'm shivering and I'm feeling very cold. Worst thing is, I need to vomit very badly. And I tried to tahan and switch on my mp3 to distract myself. Cannot leh! When I alight the bus wanting to walk over to find cy, I'm feeling so numb and I feel that I will faint anytime. So I quickly sit at the bus stop, call cy and tell her to walk over to find me. It was a hell of a experience la! Some more whenever I'm feeling unwell when I'm out, Ben is always beside me. This time round, I'm all alone. Like wth, no one can help me at all. Feel so much like dying and crying man. -.- Anyways, LJS saved me. I think my sugar level is low. But come to think of it, I keep downing myself with green tea leh. Got sugar what~ Blah~ Whatever.

My sis suggested me to go for a body checkup. I think... I really should. And she suspects me to have...... Not gonna say here, it's confidential.. I really think I should go for a body checkup soon. 

So I accompanied cy to her cell group meeting to kill time. Sit there listen to them sing songs. Lol! Funny leh, got one girl. And then the meeting ended, stayed there for quite a while to look at wedding photos. Girls~ Come together and we can talk about anything everything! So chat ah chat ah chat ah till 1am! Bo bian, cab back to Yishun. Something super funny happened when we're in the cab. All of us burst out laughing la! Hahahahahah! 

And, home sweet home.

I guess I'm having insomnia. :( I couldn't sleep for 2 fucking nights already! I think when Ben sees me on Monday, he'll freak out. & I think he die also won't believe me that I'm having insomnia la! I can sleep very easily one leh! This time round, I think my body weird weird leh! Can't get to sleep although I'm extremely tired.

I'm having very heavy eye bags now. :(

Bye.

Boring day 1

Okay, So I woke up in the afternoon knowing that I will not be able to get through Ben's cell. Damn sian when I thought about it. So I tweeted about it.

Have to shit first thing in the morning. It's my usual routine. I wake up, nua on bed, go to the washroom, shit and brush my teeth. Did my sit ups. Drank a cup of water. Have my brunch. Threw half of it away because I've got no appetite. Watch some tv shows on star world. On the computer. Online, online & online. Totally no life. Taught kiki new trick! He's learning fast. My clever baby!

& then...

Made a decision which made me a total failure. I've decided to withdraw myself from the YOG trainings. Feeling damn bad about it. I really really wanted to continue. I know, its so not convincing for you guys to believe me. But heck, I really did want to participate but the people are already in their own cliques. Moreover, I met a bloody big time bitch. She's very fucked up and I feel like giving more fucks to her man. You know what she did?

SHE FUCKING SAID TO HER WANNABES BITCHY OH-IM-SO-PRETTY CLIQUES THAT SHE DON'T FUCKING TALK TO STRANGERS! Please la, you bunch are far far away from good looking. You've got a bloody evil heart man! Xu Chun Mei prettier than you ok!

Erhem, obviously I am the stranger la! Wa lao eh! Kiam pah or not! She's just next to me when she said that. Obviously want me to hear her convo with her fucked up friends la! Cheh~

So, I encountered this very unfriendly incident with the girl and I sb buay song liao. Worst thing is, I still can't master the spinning of the poi. :( You know, some things you don't know is don't know forever one. Don't tell me to bloody practice it la! I've been going for 4 sessions of the spinning and yet people are improving and I am still stuck with the backward to foreward spin! & I very much want to join the fanning group but the fucking bitch is in the fanning group. And you know, fanning group needs group work!

So, I'm left with no choice but to leave. I know, I'm easily defeated. But, you must put yourself in MY SHOE and feel what that bloody bitch said and how pek cek when you just can't get things done! Argh. Whatever it is, I've made this decision and I want no regrets. I can volunteer to give out drinks and food. I don't mind lap sap jobs.

Sigh.

Why am I always meeting fucked up people in my life huh? I got so knn suay or not?! Argh. Pek cek leh every time like that.

Wooooh. Shitz aside. I'm currently youtubing on Youtube! Yay, hell yeah YOUTUBE'S THE BEST! I youtube-d sea monsters. And now... it's ROOM TOUR. Those ang mohs ah~ So lucky to have big rooms, walk in closet, father mother rich and get whatever make ups that they want! Shiok lor!

Aiya, as a saying goes. Life's never fair. We live in SG, one small red dot on the map. Must squint our eyes to find where SG is and then say "Ooooohh, there there! SG is here!", then the other person is like "WHERE WHERE?!". Dui bu dui?

I'm gonna continue on the room tour liao!

Ben, you better treat me good when you come back. I bored dao~~~~~~~~~~~

For 5 days.

Ben is leaving Singapore to Bangkok in 6 hours time. :(

You know, the mix feeling I've got is shitz.

I'm feeling excited, worried, happy and sad.

Excited because I know how fun it's gonna be & how he's gonna enjoy his trip with his friends.

Worried because there's the bloody demonstration going on.

Happy because I know he's gonna be happy. 

Sad is because I can't meet/talk to him for 5 days.

Ever since he ended his IA, I've been meeting him almost everyday. 

Anyways, I shouldn't be whining about him going to Bangkok.

& I feel bad being moody towards him for the past 2 days. 

The worst thing is, I didn't make use of the time we spent together this afternoon. 

I fall asleep for 2 hours while watching him play God of War3 on his ps3.

I don't know why but I'll automatically do that when he play GOW3.

It's 30 minutes to 2am and yet I can't fucking sleep. 

Very annoying!

I don't wanna sound like a fucking bitch getting all worked up and cry and make a scene because my boyfriend is leaving Singapore for 5 days.

And then say things like, I'm dying because of this and blah blah blah.

But you know, sometimes you have to say things that sounded like a fucking bimbo to tell a person how much you misses him/her.

I guess I'll be visiting this space quite often.

From Day 1 to Day 5.

Not gonna flood it with how much I miss him but with well, maybe what's going on during these 5 days.

Haha!

Make him guilty a bit. Hehe!

I'll go try to sleep now. 

Sb don't want to.

Nights!

With you.

Ben's IA has ended! Means... More cuddles, more smooches, more arguments, more fats, more laughters and more foooood.

This year is the 5th. Time passes so fast. I can say, we see the change in both of us. From ginna pi(teenager) to almost an adult. From seeing me at my most bottom peak and to the highest. 

Sometimes, I wonder, are we destined to date till we get married or is he just a passerby who guides me through into my adulthood and leave me aftermath. Hmmmm.. 

Anyways, we're still as happy together till now. That is what matter most! Hehe! He even bought 2 tickets to Universal Studio!! We'll be going on the 31st. And, for you suckers, we are still as loving as before. Hehe!

Taiwan Trip Day 3 & our "date"

Happiness is, and always will be, about the moment; it cannot be pursued.

This explains the look on my face. I took this picture last night right after I reached home. Now, if you were to tell me to give you this happy and cheeky look, I can't. It is the moment of happiness, you see. 

Although time spent together were short yesterday, but I cherish it. Had Ramly for dinner and the person is ka na sai! Don't want to serve us lor! Mcnugget. Moreover, the beef patty is pathetically small. Duh! I think its because we are not of the same race. Serve us like buay gum muan. Then open business for what?! -.-

Enough said. 

***

Taiwan trip Day 3

So, the younger ones decided to have a day to ourselves. Took a bullet train down to Tai Pei. And then their MRT to Xi Men Ding and Shih Lin. Yeap! & I lao sai-ed for 3 days liao! :( So many things cannot eat. Or should I say, so many things dare not eat! Eat what poot what. 

People go Taiwan will at least gain a kg or two. But for me, I lost weight. Hehe, but I like losing weight. LOSE MORE!

The bullet train ticket. Fucking expensive. 1 trip cost around 30+! Anyways, it's a 1 hour ride from Tai Chung to Tai Pei! Zun zun 1 hour. 

YAY! Arriving!

Look a bit like air plane seats huh?

Passed by quite a few stations before reaching Tai Pei. :D

Yeah, we saw Rainie Yang when we're at Xi Men Ding! 

Erhem.. All Rainie's pictures were taken by Xuan Zhi! I'm not that tall to capture those images! Hahahaha!

Anyways, the guys are really shopaholic man! They can really shop! They did not rest at all one lor. My legs nearly break when I'm with them sia. Hardcore shoppers! Oh yah, I did not buy any clothings there. :( Feel like a bit awkward when shopping with them leh. Nevertheless, I got myself Skinfood products! Fucking cheap there! Happy!

Eyeliner, Aloe Vera BB Cream, Mushroom & Milk facial cleanser (not available in SG), Nail Polish for my sis & Samples.

The biker jacket is for Ben. He always wanted it whenever we go Zara, he would definitely aim at those not very nice but expensive jackets. In the end, always receive a "NO" from me. Haha!

So got him this as a surprise. 

THATS ALL. Tv time!

Bye!

I'm different, you bitches!

Jennifer says (12:39 AM):
 if one day i spam your wall with "ai ni oh~ so happy to see you!"

Jennifer says (12:40 AM):
 u will believe its me or not?

Benjamin says (12:40 AM):
 wont la
 i will ask wad happen

Jennifer says (12:40 AM):
 HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
 why leh

Benjamin says (12:41 AM):
 coz like crazy la
 wtf
 u r not like that wad

A week of not meeting & better........

I've not been meeting Ben for more than a week. He kept texting me to meet him but I kept rejecting him because I'm feeling so tired and it feels so good to be back home. And, after a week of hesitation and "mai la mai la" attitude, I finally agreed to meet him today! Wahahaha! Know why? I had a bad dream last night. Damn scary lor. I think I shouted & cried. Wahahahahaaa! Woke up with a sore eye. Must be got cry one la~ If not how the hell would I have sore eyes?

Anyways, my purpose for this post is..... My complexion got better! WAHAHAHAHAHAA! After only a few pills like maybe... Err.. Less than 10 pills!. Wooohoooo! I'm very very happy & my Mom kept assuring me that the pills really did improve my complexion! Mai siao siao, 1 pill $1 okie! There's only like 30 pills and it's only enough for a month. Imagine every month I consume the pills...

12 x 30 = 360

1 year have to pay $360 for the pills.

Okay la, not very expensive. It's better than those wanna eat money kind of clinic saying "Okay you buy this wash. This is face wash, toner, day cream and night cream." See see touch touch your face and tadah~ 100 over bucks. Eeyer, eat money! That is why I keep hesitating should I go to the National Skin Centre (my dad asked me to go) for consultation.

You know how desperate I am to get my previous complexion back after my chicken pox or not?!?! Very desperate lor! And I used my savings to go buy those stupid face wash. Brighten skin one la~ 100% clear pimples one la~ Buy toner la~ Buy all sorts of facial products la~ NO USE LOR!

Kns, cheat my money. I even went to buy those brightening acne serum from The Faceshop. Pump less than 40 times no more liao! Cheat my money. Still let me see the picture of the woman before and after using. Kns. Must be photoshop lor! And I tell you, if it is cheap maybe less than 15bucks I won't gei gao la. But I tell you it's around 40bucks lor!! FYI, I not very rich so don't kp saying aiya 40bucks only what. You 40bucks nothing I 40bucks is everything.

I still remember, last month, I went to Google about getting better complexion. And some of the Netizens say things like use baking soda, toothpaste, lemon and so on. So I was thinking... Hmmm.. Toothpaste ah? Toothpaste every household have what~ So the night before I sleep, I went to apply toothpaste on the spots. Good game~ Morning wake up with hot red spots. Make it even worst! Very pain and itchy. Damn it man. I was thinking, hoh seh liao~ This time I make my face's condition even worst with my own bare hands!! I freaked out lor!

So haha, not everything you google on the web is gonna work lor! Lesson learnt man.

This is my complexion now! Although I'm still having some blemishes, but I can guarantee you that it did became better! Things like redness is gone! And, I did not wear any make up on. Not even eyeliner that I die die must wear every time when I go out. I adjusted the color of the picture a little. 

Okay, this is the original picture before I adjusted the color and contrast. 

I'm actually very tan in real life. Not so fair like the picture above. And I don't like my pictures to be so so fucking fair till cannot see the features only can see the mouth and eyes. Hehe! 

The pills really did help me! Thanks mom for that!

Byeeeeee!

Where is the love?

Why is it that I don't feel the bond between us anymore when I'm back from Bangkok? :'(

Kiki made me feel that he hated me in a way. 

I know I've neglected him after I'm back from Taiwan because I have been staying over at Ben's place quite often. But...

I'm speechless. 

I guess I have to make him feel loved and secure all over again just like when he's a pup.
I want that special bond back.
I'm sorry my dear baby for neglecting you this month.
I know it's enough to kill him because he's extremely close to me & I can say he can't live without me.
He will howl whenever I leave the house.
He sleeps with me and even kissed me when I'm feeling upset.

It's me that made him lose the loyalty.
It's me that made him lose the trust that he puts wholeheartedly in.

& today, he's extremely playful and made me flare up on him.
This made it worst.

I guess.. I'm the one that needs the self-reflection not him.

I'm upset. :(

Taiwan trip Day 2

Seriously speaking, I've forgotten about my trip to Taiwan already. My bad. Blame my laziness. Well, let the pictures do the talking then.

Basically, it's a very boring trip for day 2.

I nearly died at this place. It's actually a temple on a mountain top. We stayed at this place for a full 16 hours. We sat on a stool. Mind you, a stool. My back's aching and it's the first time that I hate sitting down! We can't move about and my patience is limiting every hour. Told myself not to throw any tantrums. And yes, I did not lor. But I scolded a aunty for pushing me when we're about to leave. Had a bad bad diarrhea since then. All in all, pardon me for saying that it's bullshit. How can... that... man.... be.... able.... to.... traumatize... the.... humans.... and... led.... them.... to.... be.... barbarians.... when.... receiving.... their.... so.... called.... good.... fortune.... If you were there, you wouldn't like it too. Trust me. I think I had to stop this one day. Make my Mom come back to realization. Hmmmmm..

I'll be leaving again!

This time... to BANGKOK!

I know I did not complete my post on my Taiwan trip and here I am going to Bangkok and coming back with lots of photos again. I'm just so lazy to update on my Taiwan trip la! 

I think I'll be shopping like mad when I'm there. Hahahaaa!~

Flight is at 8.10am, fetching Fiona at 6am. Must wake up at 5.15am! Arghhh!

Its all worth it. 

Byeee!

Taiwan Trip - Day 1 plus some other overdue stuffs.

*Updated*

“Nobody can fully understand the meaning of love unless he’s owned a dog. A dog can show you more honest affection with a flick of his tail than a man can gather through a lifetime of handshakes.”
Gene Hill 

25th Feb

Met up with Ben before I leave for Taiwan. Those kind of ai mai ai mai kind of feeling is very irritating. I forgot what happened that day. And, he's looking so tired and weak. That's because of his attachment! That bloody place is a torture. And he fucking skinny la! -.-

26 Feb

Our flight is at 12pm. So, I woke up at 7am to prepare because we gotta reach there 2 hours before the actual flight. Check in our luggage and so on. Time passes so damn fast and it's 11.30am already. Gates opened, passengers on board and the flight leaves exactly at 12pm! I think, everyone has every reason to like Singapore's Airline! The taking off and landing is swee one lor! It's not bumpy at all. Thumbs up for Singapore Airline man! ^^

Changed seats with my Mom because I want the window seat! Hahahaa!

It's a 4 hours 10 mins flight, if I'm not wrong. Plus and minus the minutes. And, I watched The Blind Side during the flight. LOL! Not bad, but I don't find it touching leh. Hmmm.. I've gotta comment on the food because... I always thought SATS food is the best out of all the others. But.. er.. Their chicken is fucking tough la! Must be chicken breast! Luckily my grandma chose the pork one. If not I think she will have a hard time chewing that damn piece of chicken! 

Heee!

And, you know what? My grandma made a new friend on the plane. LOL!! So cute and funny la! That lady is actually from Taiwan and she's studying at Australia. Ooooh yeah. Initally I thought she was from China because of her wannabe ang moh accent! Whatever it is, she's a nice lady and she helped my grandma with the controllers and ordering of drinks. :) 

The arrival counter at Taiwan. I must say, it is extremely messy!! People are everywhere!! And ahah, I'm still far away from the counters. 

At the waiting area waiting for our coach. 

Our coach! Quite cosy la. LOL! Not so disappointing.

Our tour mates. Very friendly and nice people. :)

Okay, our tour guide name is Chen. So he brought us to this restaurant. I don't know what name it is but...

The food, to me, is inedible! Fucking not nice and I feel so home sick at that point of time. :( I only take a few mouths and thats it. My chopsticks and bowls lay there for the rest of an hour. And they don't use spoon one leh!! So I have to use the chopsticks to "kiap" the rice! Damn sian and spoil appetite!

My cousins! Both very skinny la!! 

Back to the coach and it's gonna be a 2 hour ride to Tai Chung! FYI, our plane landed at Tao Yuan which is at Tai Pei if I'm not wrong. Finally reached the "hotel". OMG! I nearly faint at the sight of it. I thought it's gonna be a hotel but no lor!!!! More like a motel FFS! I wanna cry. Very dirty, very quiet, no swimming pool, no customer service. OMG! I would rather die. When you're traveling, the most important thing is to have a beautiful place to stay in la!! IT IS VERY IMPORTANT! The lift is... smelly and whatever shit you can think of la!

Our room. :(

The moment I step into the room, I almost burst out crying la!!!! The place... left me speechless. So I complain to my Mom and I niam and niam and niam non stop. This is sooooooooo disappointing. Last resort.. I called Ben to fucking complain to him over the phone and I jit tao feel like buying a tix and head back to SG man. I miss home. 

FIRST DAY ONLY LEH! I miss home like crazy shit.

And so, after settling down with our stuffs, we headed out of the hotel and tour around the area of our hotel. The traffic... Damn crazy!!! Fucking scary and I don't even dare to cross the road even when the green man is on. IT IS THAT CRAZY!! I practically ran across the road when the green man is on la! It is a hell of experience for me. First is the hotel and now the traffic. OMG. Kill me plszszz.


Alright, so we entered this bakery shop. Finally something nice and cosy and presentable. :) The cakes are very beautiful!!! And we bought some bread because we had to go to the mountain top the next day in the morning.

Very pwetty please! It's like fucking cheap la!! 4inch for 180NT. Singapore dollar around 7.90!! I tell you, if you see these cakes around in those high end bakery shop it will cost you a bomb lor! Chao chao you need 20bucks in SG to buy these cakes. 

Headed back to the hotel. Wash up and lay down on the bed.. Can't slp.. Miss home like crazy.. And I finally doze off.. 

End of day 1!