Hell time starts today.

I just got back from my Stats paper. All I can say is, the paper is manageable and hopefully I can pass! I almost forgot how to do the Hypothesis test! I kept writing formula for the confidence interval test and trying my means and ways to find T! How blur can I get! Then finally I realized, I wrote the wrong formula after like 5 minutes of being so kan jiong. Heh.

Seriously, during that paper I need to pee so badly. And then it leads to stomachache. Then I break into cold sweat because I need to pee and my tummy ache is so bad. Ta ma de~ All full combo come at once. Then I cannot concentrate because the pain took over my mind. Worst, collection of paper is so damn fucking slow!! Wa lao. I reached home I jit tao lao sai. :(

3 more papers to go and yay! Party time!! Going Bintan next week! Wooooyeahhh!

Ben is sick. :( Once I was out from the exam hall, got a text from him saying that he's with needles and water droplets. :( Poor boy. Seriously, I think he should be sent back home rather than staying at his bunk for 2 days. Sigh. Get well soon baby and congrats to him for passing his drill test with flying colors! :D

HEHEHE, ITS TOMORROW!! <3

What happened!!!

I've got major pimple outbreak. It is very terrible and I hate it!!! :( So sad.

Love green.

Met Ben in the evening yesterday. Hehe! The whole morning was spent studying because I reckon we would be home quite late. So decided to forgo the trip to town with Ben and friends. Only met them for dinner and some catching up session. Heh.

Had Yuki Yaki for dinner. It is a major disappointment because the last time we dine there is better! Standard drop, tsk tsk! I'd rather go Bencoolen street there to have some original steamboat buffet. :( Such a not satisfying dinner! Bad bad. Super not satisfying man. Anyway, it cost approx 27 bucks per person and the varieties were so little! Worst, did not stock up food one lor. Argh. 

Walked to Helix Bridge, back to Esplanade, chitty chatty, walked to One Fullerton and slacked at Coffee Bean. Omg, I am soooooo in love with their Hazelnut Coffee ice blend! Yumm! Saw 2 fireworks which were sooooo pretty at One Fullerton. Its like so near to us! Standing at Esplanade watching the fireworks is definitely no kick! Be smart, go OF and catch it! It is really pretty! Heh.

Anyway, the picture only show my eyes because I screwed up my face make up yesterday unknowingly!!! :( My coverage yesterday was so screwed until I camwhored with flash and saw that there are patches. Sigh. It has been so long since I used BB cream for coverage and when I did it yesterday, I totally just pat on it, rub it, put on my compact and use my MAC strobe cream for highlights on my high points. Everything done within 3 minutes. Usually I will take about 5 to 6 minutes just for my face. Anyway, I loooove my eye make up yesterday! So now I know, green suits me and it is so casual! Yippie yay! 

Decided to show my patches. Look, it is damn bad and argh. :(

Now I see you.

Don't resort to such means.

Karma? Do you know what's that in the first place? Hehe.

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I got an Ipod Touch! Yayayayy! Bro "gave" it to me! Hhahahahaaa! Can't wait to see Ben tomorrow. Yippie!

Pictures.

Love him so much. So so much. 

I'm not a fool!

Hehe! I'm not a fool. Hehe!

Random pictures of Ben!

Hahahahaha! Sec 3, Sec 4 and now! 

Actually, during his secondary school days he's quite charming eh. Got those xiao shuai ge face. 

Me love salmon.

LIFE is like a marathon, as is faith. Though you may lose the lead in the midst of the race, victory or defeat is decided at the finish line. Your training during your youth is for the purpose of enabling you to win ultimate and true victory. Therefore, now is the time when you must study as much as you can, and must chant abundant daimoku sot that you can greatly increase your life force.

~Daisaku Ikeda

So, I was a happy girl yesterday! I met Ben early in the morning and we went for a jog. Now I've got muscle cramp all over my body! No idea why it is whole body though. Feel so healthy yesterday! Hehe. Then back to my place to rest, bathe and change. Dad brought us back to Ben's place and went to his house's kopi tiam to have our breakfast! Fishball noodle yummy! Straight to cold storage to buy the ingredients for dinner.

Okay.. So we cooked...

1. Baked salmon 
2. Butter potato
3. Stir fry button mushrooms

Anyway, we're cooking for 5 persons including Ben and myself so we got a little messed up. But overall, its edible and its nice. But.. the salmon isn't as nice as the previous time. :( Wonder what's wrong with it. We did the exact same method but it came out a little too tough. And, we were doubting whether is it norwegian salmon or not. It just feel so different. And the little bit of pungent fish smell is there before we cook it. Don't know why. Luckily we bought lemons to go along with the dish. So it is not as bad. 

Butter potato needless to say is yummy! Just loveeee it!~ Hehe. Stir fry mushroom is nice but isn't to my liking. Ben used another method to cook it. :( Traditional method the best! 

No pictures because I totally forgot about my phone yesterday. How blur!

Stayed over. Just love heart to heart talk although I was a little moody last night. Ben totally managed to cheer me up. Thanks baby. 

I'm feeling tired. Yawnz. Its another 5 weeks to go again...

Don't belittle me.

I guess, my title says it all.

This place will never be my private emotions. Sometimes, it is better to write it down in ink.

Give and take is all I need to say. Since you ain't giving, then you shall not receive anything from me in the future. :) As easy as ABC.

Anyway, I'm left with 2 more chapters of Econs and I am done studying! Will continue it tomorrow at Ben's place. Jogging later in the morn with Ben and then out to Cold Storage to get all ingredients for the baked salmon and butter potato! Ben's cooking dinner tomorrow for his family and I. I tell ya his cooking is superb. :) Not trying to brag but you just gotta taste it. He isn't a chef for nothing! Haha!

I'm so lucky to find a man who love, dote and can cook for me! I'm so happy, I'm so glad that I met him.

Alright, goodnight. My mind kept running through those Econs notes even while I'm typing these. Damn scary. So I guess its time for sleep. Ciao!

YOG Opening Ceremony Rehearsal

So! I went to the YOG Opening Ceremony yesterday with Terence! Okay.. Terence is actually Ben's brother. Their Sister is performing for YOG and has got free tix to the rehearsal! So I went with Terence to catch the show. Well, starting is rrrrrrreeeeaaaaalllllyyyyy boring and draggy. But when the show started its WOW. Nice! I think its better than NDP's show. Hahahahaaa! I really enjoy it but was feeling really uncomfortable because we're sitting on the poncho because the seat is wet. And what's more? No goodie bag. :( 

You know right! Their goodie bag got this dove thingy that is soooooo pretty and nice! Humph. >:( But its okay! Out of all, I think firedance is the best! Its really like wahh then woooh then omg! Hehe! I was telling Terence that luckily I back out because I think I will cry if the fire hits me. You know, there's no full control over the fire! Overall, its nice! Nice job by all Soka members! Cheeers! :D

Missing Ben. 

Friday fast fast. Can't wait.

Reason why I seldom club. Heart to heart.

My Sis always ask me, why didn't I go clubbing when I am allowed to. I don't know why either. Serious. Maybe, I'll give you 3 reasons why I don't.

1. I've got a boyfriend and he doesn't like me to go clubbing. (Not blaming him though. I know he care.)
2. I get drunk like fucking easily. :( & I hate it. I blacked out after 2 cups of vodka and 1 tequila shot.
3. Guys go to hook on girls. Girls go to can't wait to get fucked. I am neither here nor there. 

Hahahahaaa! Don't tell me you go clubbing to PURELY have fun lor. You go there because you wanna know how attractive you are and how many guys will be attracted to you. Isn't it? Lol! Yes la, some go there to purely have fun but tell me how many percent? 

I don't know why I wanna start on this topic.. But I just did. Maybe because it was a conversation with Bro just now about women, studies and night life over dinner. It was more of a heart to heart talk. There are so many things that I wanted to share but I can't. Although he always mind his own business in this family but in his heart he cares for everyone. I still remember when I am in my teenage years, I always get scoldings from him. I remember there were once he got so angry that he slap me with a wet towel right onto my face. Fucking painful. But as when I grow older it seems that we can just strike a conversation so easily. And, he always give me money during Christmas to spend on the things I want when he started working at an Oil Co. He even said if I want, after my graduation he will recommend me to work in the co. 

Okay, all these aside. Becoming so wordy. =S

It has been so so so long that I post pictures of Kiki!! 

BYE!

My daughter.

So.. I went to some random strangers blog and they went to a website to morph their baby! So I decided to try it out and heh heh!

So.. If Ben and I were to really get married, this is how our daughter will look like! Freaking adorable isn't it? So now, it makes me think twice about having a baby. You know, I always hated kids (not babies) ageing from 4 to11. Hahahahaaa! Especially those freaking annoying in the MRT and always love to make a scene.

Looking at the morphed child.. Okay.. Wait a minute.. Is it a son or a daughter?

I just morphed another photo of us and it turns out to be.....

HAHAHAHAHAHA! This picture look more like a girl leh! The previous picture I reckon.. is a boy? Because if I were to compare side by side..

Left look like boy and right look like girl! Right right??? Anyways, I think both of them got my mouth, my eyes and the shape of my face. Whereas the nose... LOOK LIKE BEN'S. Fat and round and ugly. Eeyer! Jiat lat lah! How can the nose look like Ben's?! You see, can see the nostril so clealy! Jit tao button nose. I hate button nose! Look like mine will be good what! Nice, small and straight. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 

Aiyoooo! So ke ai and piao liang! Buay tahan leh! I wanna have a baby now! LOL! AND! Why my girl got pa jiao eyes ah?! Ka na sai~ Morph also don't know how to morph properly. 

Alamak! I wanna have a baby so badly now. Better turn out to be as cute as this.. If not, something must be wrong. HAHAHAHA! 

The Ship Restaurant.

So, I stayed over at Ben's place last night. Hehehehe, lovelove! Woke up around 11.30, went to have breakfast and then headed home. 

Helped Kiki to blow dry his fur. When that little boy saw me, he cried so loudly. Hahaha! Must be missing me so much la him. Then Ben called and asked if I wanna join his family to town. Was hesitating a little because I was very tired. :( But I still go in the end because I need to pass his Mom the Samsung charger. 

Bathed, changed and waited for his Dad to come over and fetch me over to town. Waited for his Mom to shop around. Helped to choose faux lashes and lipstick color. Hahahaaa! I think right, I have to buy another lipstick again. The colors were so freaking nice! Okay, that aside. So we walked over to Wheelock then to Shaw house and to The Ship Restaurant & Bar. That place is so ulu and scary. 

Decided to dine in there. :D

The interior is cool!!! Just like those olden days kind of ship's interior. What's more? Freaking famous for its steak! You know, the diners there were practically those regular customers who had known this restaurant for years. Diners there were usually quite old. LOL!! I think it started around 1991 and hold quite a number of certificates for their premium steak eh? This, I'm not too sure but I tell ya, the sizzling beef smell so nice. Woooh! 

Okay, so we settled down at that place and ordered Norwegian Salmon (for me), 2 Rib Eye Steak and 2 Ship Steak. Hehe! I don't really like beef so I chose salmon instead. :P FOC bun and butter! Mushroom soup is freaking yummmmy! Not too thick and its hot! Yummm! Escargot and Scallops were so-so. But I heard that their Escargots is superb. I think they put a little too much garlic and it covers the natural taste of scallop and escargots. :( 

Pictures all taken from Google! :) Anyway, I really like their service. Fast and efficient! And no doubt, their steak is really superrrrb(Ben said so)! Salmon is freaking nice but I think... Ben's baked salmon taste better because it really melts in my mouth. Heh! Don't really like their veggies because it tasted weird. =S Guess they pour some kind of wine or something. 

Overall its really a nice place to dine in especially for families and friends for some chilling session!

You know, I'm so happy this week because its an awesome week spent with Ben. Hehe! Major love.

Had my fringe cut! Hee! And look at Baby and my messy room!

Waiting~

Just when I'm about to blog, Ben called and ask me to get ready!

Oh yay!

Awesome weekend spent with him. 

Such love.

What? So God made us this way to abuse animals?!

SERIOUSLY.

Humans should stop abusing animals. What the fuck is fucking wrong with them. Then again, Singapore is too lenient in handling such cases. There are SO MANY FUCKING CASES OF ANIMAL ABUSE IN SINGAPORE. Fucking do something about it. Why is it that humans who are being abused were saved and yet animals being abused aren't?! You can let animals being abused die well, DO THAT TO A HUMAN TOO. Its a life too what. WHATS THE DIFFERENCE?! Just because humans were able to converse and animals can't? So you think its alright that living things that are not able to voice out ought to be dead? Nice. So those people who are mute AND being abused should just die. AM I RIGHT TO SAY THAT?! Like that old man at CCK who sexually abused the female dog. Police reports were being made and nothing were done to capture this OLD MAN. FUCKING OLD MAN AND YET THOSE WELL BUILT (I ASSUME) ERHEM CANNOT EVEN CAPTURE HIM?! MIND YOU, IT IS SINCE APRIL 1ST AND NOTHING HAS BEEN DONE BY THEM!

Just go fucking fuck a prostitute and leave those animals alone you sickening old man! Those prostitutes are HERE IN SINGAPORE FOR A REASON! TO SATISFY PEOPLE LIKE HIM WHO ARE FUCKING SICK IN THE MIND.

Enough said. Seriously, those fines just aren't okay. Sometimes, people should just learn to be affectionate towards these animals because they too know what love is. Just leave them alone if you don't like them. Why go to the extend of abusing them? It is just these kinda people that never let others have a peace of mind.

Huh, what? Random.

I AM HUNGRY! In fact, very hungryyy! Where is my dad! Haiyaaaa. 

You know one thing I hate about school is the timings. Like today. I went to school at 9am and did the most bo liao test on Earth and supposedly Effcomm starts right after but it was cancelled. AND before the break at 1pm, there's POM lecture for an hour. Totally wtf. 2 hours do nothing but no choice have to nua your ass off. Damn fuck and I went to have Big Breakfast for my breakie and I know that the fats in it is one of the highest among all other meals. Wtf again and I went to play pool to kill time. Waste of money but sometimes you just have to waste these money. Then, rushed back to school for that 20 minutes of lecture like wtf the third time. AND 2 FUCKING HOURS BREAK AGAIN. Kill me pleash! I want to die because it just feel like I'm waiting to be hanged or something. 

And... School ended at 4 because we're having MCQ test on some bo liao won't-use-it-in-the-future module. I just wasted 4 hours of my life in school. Great! Because they just want us to waste our lives away. Yay! _|_

Whatever.

Hehe! Tomorrow is Friday and is Ben's Bookout Day! Heh. Oh oh! I finally did some proper facial care regimen. I freaking love exfoliating. Hehehe! Currently using St Ives products for exfoliating and masking. Their clay mask is freaking good I tell ya! MBD masks are good too! Heh. And all thanks to CY for introducing me the freaking small and expensive yet freaking good tube of pimple cream. One small tube for 17 bucks! Yippie! And, I'm gonna save up and buy Kose's compact powder. This, I should really invest on because it has good coverage and I really like it! Hehe, I got a sample of it from Her World and the first time I used it, I freaking love it. But the removing part is a killer. Because it covers so well, you have to clean it like 4 to 5 times. :( Thats the sian part la. 

I know. I fucking desperate to have my good complexion back and it is slowly getting better. More greens, more water, less tab. 

HI BABY I'M YOUR FUCKING CHIO GF RIGHT! YOU JUST READ MY BLOG AND I FREAKING LOVE YOU! LETS MASK TGT AGAIN LIKE HOW WE USED TO TOMORROW! LOVELOVE!

Exhausted.

I just reached home an hour ago when my lecture actually ended at 9am. 

And fuck it, just let me rant. I'm so tired and my brain is temporary not functioning. 

Anyway, I woke up late and I rushed to school and managed to sit in for the lecture for just a mere 15 minutes.  My butt didn't even warm the seat and the lecturer said "Okay, that's all for today." FML seriously. The worst thing is, he will take everybody's attendance, be it those who attended or those who did not. Totally what the fuck because I was expecting myself to go up to him and asked him to take my attendance. There he goes with that fucked up sentence. Tell me earlier next time, I will skip your lecture. Please be kind to people who are deprived of sleep. TYVM.

Talking about sleep. It has been so long since I actually sleep in till early afternoon. FYI, I can sleep as long as 12 hours per day. I know, die early. Good what. Live so long for what. The longer you live the more agony you get because as time goes by, many people around you is slowly dying. I'd rather be the first few who die and let the rest of the people who love me to have the agony. Hahahahaha! Evil. So me!

Aging aging aging. Everyone is slowly aging. Sigh. With a blink of an eye, you're 25. Blink again, 30. I'm already 20 and I see no good future ahead of me. Jiat lat. How? 

Ben always tell me that he will give me a blissful life ahead. How blissful? I'm not doubting his ability but... we have to take into so many considerations. We're not born in a wealthy family. If one day, we're so lucky and with our good fortune, we will earn big money. That will be fucking good. But... What if we don't? Parents no longer can support us because its our turn to be supporting them. Count those kids lucky that they are born with a silver spoon. You guys better fucking cherish whatever you have. Not saying that those who aren't born in a rich family do not have to cherish whatever they have. It is you guys that you have to cherish more because the things you get is hard earned. :) 

Okay, all these aside. I'm hungry! 

& I don't wanna re-module! :(

I miss Ben and 1 day more to seeing him!!!! Friday faster come. Kuai dian kuai dian! 

So glad.

Sometimes, it is these sweet nothings, guidance and encouragements that makes our love so strong.

It is gonna be our 5 years soon this September 1st. I can't wait! This is the first time, after so long of dating that we are finally.......... Haha! Its a secret! Will disclose it only after our anniversary!

I can't describe how deep my love for him is. But, as I grow older, I know that he is the right one for me. :)

People always say, the longer you date that person, the more tired you get in that relationship. But for me, the longer I date Ben, the deeper I fell for him. I guess, it was because of the word 'compromise' and 'love'. I can say, we put in effort in sustaining this relationship till date. Although we might have some small arguments but it never last long. Although sometimes, I really wanna slap him fucking hard on his face when he pisses me off but I never did. 

Whatever it is, ever moment is filled with so much love. 

I just love weekends because I know, he will always be there and make me feel safe. 

"If I am pressed to say why I loved him, I feel it can only be explained by replying: "Because it was he; because it was me."

-Montaigne