Saturday, April 30, 2011

Halfway through my EFMA....

And I decided to blog halfway through my tutorial. Shit it. Why is it so difficult? :( I thought Year 2 would be easier.. Sigh. And I miss being in the same class as TXY. :( :( No more her to listen to my sickest joke and no more her to share things with me. No more the same frequency. No more pon school tgt because we are such lazy asses. BIG SIGH. Not say my new class not good... But I think I can't find the person whom has the same level of frequency as I do. So difficult to find you know..... :(

And up till now, only one pathetic classmate added me on FB! And he's the guy who is like the smartest person in class la! Knn got so jia lat or not. I got so unapproachable meh? How to survive my 2 years like that??? Die liao lorzx. SIANNNN.

3rd day I already go get MC liao....

Why like that.....

CANNOT BE LIKE THAT!

MOTIVATION!

Anyway, I believe that things will get better each day!

My 3 ground rules to myself:

  1. Smile more
  2. No frowning
  3. AND FUCKING NO SWEARING LIKE KNNBCCBWTFNB AND ALL KIND.
  4. Stop diu-ing here and there
  5. More ladylike
  6. Be guai guai like gong toot toot
  7. Stop having such evil convos. (very difficult, cannot help it)
  8. SMILE EVEN MORE
Damn jia lat. I think all cannot make it. I think I am scaring my classmates away and I am hating it. Got hweeling kena ostracise leh. :'( 

Damn jia lat. I tio pwn by youngsters.

DIU NA SENG! No mood do tutorial already!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

3/4 Feb/March/April 2011

So.. I haven't been really blogging lately. Nearly 2 months of holiday is way too shiok to even keep track of everything in life. I even forgot what I did for the past 2 months! My gawd!! My bad, for having such poor memory! Nevertheless, this holiday is supposed to be a "recuperating" process. Remember I worked part time and study at the same time? It was just 2 weeks before my exams before I quit my job! After that is just study study study study non stop (me not joking). So I think I really deserve the rest and fun after my exams! Teehee! And what is even more deserving is that I did pretty well for my Year 1! *claps* Hard work does pay off! That is when this phrase comes in: "You reap what you sow". Hehe!

Anyway, I really cannot remember what I did for this holiday. But I think I put on weight and its so scary!! Hahahahahaha!! That aside. Oh! I had my first time.... My first time being a make up "model". Initially was to help my friend's gf to be her make-up model but I ended up helping the gf's friend! Well..... It was an experience. I don't know when the pictures will be released but I hope it will be released soon! I wanna see how I look like! Hahahahaha! Be it pretty or ugly, I am still thankful for the experience and the joy!

Oh yeah, and I found a part time job in the hospital. Being an agent. My gawwwd. Never belittle such jobs okay and please be nice if you were to call! Lots of knowledge needs to be imparted and the CRM/SAP is damn difficult to learn lor! Nonetheless, your communication skill must be damn good la!! And you have to handle all sorts of queries (mostly stupid). Me no joke okay! Its never easy to be working in a call centre. So next time you call any telcom companies or whatsoever that needs to speak to the operator, please be fucking nice. There are reasons why some of them is so grumpy! Because it was you people with fucked up attitude that demand this and that, and complain is what Sgporeans are good for! Sigh, never an easy job and whats more? Need to learn the medical terms. However, I feel that I should not hiam about my job because its just a 20mins walk away from my place. Oh and not to forget, the working environment is good and the people there are nice. Willing to help you without any hesitation!

And I went to club after so long! With cy and my sis! Was fun. Not gonna say drink, drank, drunk cuz it is pretty childish leh. Like want people to know you drink and you drank and you drunk like that. Haha! Was fun and I hate talking to Caucasians cuz I don't understand their accent. :( This George guy left a good impression on me. Neways, it is always a hi-bye thing in clubs. Oh well. Haha!

So I spent my holiday with Ben, spent my holiday with Ben, met up with babe, met up with babe, chill out with friends, have dinner with friends, spent my holiday with Ben, work, work and work and everything is just maybe probably the same. :)


Not edited.




The bridal look. Hate my brows.






I think I really look different from different angles, with specs and with no make up! The bridal make up super don't look like me. Maybe because I didn't smile ah. Don't know leh. Hahaha. 

Alright. School's on Monday and me half excited and half not. Cuz don't know who is my classmates! 

Friday, April 22, 2011

Damn sad


Hello people!!! I just read back my past posts and yes I know super boring and very emotional. Anyway, please ignore the title of this post! I will come to that later! 

Been busy spending time with Ben for the past week. Its just purely spending time, thats all. No outings. :( Just nua here and there, watch some movies online, catch a show at GV, play pool and talk some nonsensical stuffs and laugh our ass off. Just some simple time spent and I am more than happy. Hehe!

Oh yeah, I LOST MY CAMERA'S USB CABLE! Damn sad. Wtf where the hell did I place it! Can't find it anywhere! :( Got so many photos to upload siaa. Hais. WHY LIKE THAT. Damn angry with myself. :'(

Ok, I think the best way to make yourself sleepy is to blog. Can feel the sleepiness kicking in. Hell yeah, goodnight all and sweet dreeams. 

Saturday, April 9, 2011

My friend

Dear friend,

I dreamt about you this morning. You were asking for me. It felt so real. I dreamt that you're leaving and you're waiting for me to tell me something. You wanted to see me for the last time before you leave. This is the 3rd time that I dreamt of you and every time it felt so real. No doubt, I still miss you a lot. Although during conversations, I don't talk about you at all, it doesn't mean that I have forgotten you. It was because I don't wanna be reminded of us. I don't wanna feel sad and cry. I am not trying to avoid.. I just can't bring myself up to be reminded that you're gone.

You're afraid that I've forgotten about you? That is why you came into my dreams and thrush me back into reality? No, I did not forget you. Maybe you knew how upset I was last night. So you came and tell me that you will be there for me forever, right?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Private emotions

Its been so long since I feel this way. The feeling that wasn't supposed to be there was there. The feeling of denial was there. Everything, just came all at once. I almost couldn't handle it. I managed to overcome it. Never easy, never fast.

I'm just not me. Just so not me. I need somewhere that I can really pen down every thoughts that is on my mind. I've been bottling up too much stuffs. I need to let it all out and spare me any agony that I'm going through.

Never gonna give up and fight till my last breath.