These 2 months

Didn't started it well. But the perseverance was really worth it and with a blink of an eye, it has been two months. In fact, it was a happy two months. Really thankful that we managed to go through shits that people put us through. :)

For the past month, I'm really happy. Haha, even with only the slightest thing. Maybe I can put it as I'm really  easily content with the things I have now? Cuz I know happiness is short lived, then why wouldn't I want to be happy right?

Hehe feel so loved. Yup!

You're the first person who really appreciates what I did and show me your appreciation in many other ways. I'm so touched.

:')

Halfway through 2012

I know its too early to pen down my thoughts now cuz it isn't the end of 2012 yet. But I just have this very strong urge to pen these these thoughts that's running through my mind now. I know it's only halfway through 2012 but still, I wanna post it up.

I didn't start my 2012 well though. I ended a 6 years relationship and just finally gotten over it about 2 months ago. It was a clean break up for the both of us. Which is something good I guess? All is good now, I guess for him too? Haha, I know you read my blog! Hope you're doing well!! :)

Haha, I'm stuck in writing..

Hmmmm...

Anyway, let me just shorten it and write about what happened recently?

I guess I just lost a once considered very good friend? Yeah, I think so. I don't know how I should go about saying it here but I guess things didn't ended well because the other party was kinda unwilling to? I don't know. I guess everyone blames me for whatever that had happened and caused this friendship to turn sour. But you know what, it wasn't entirely my fault. For things to happen, you need two hands to clap. Right? And I know everyone had been hearing stories about me and they dislike me now.

I don't blame because I just feel that they aren't of any importance to me at all, so why should I bother? Saying that I ain't affected by these people's sayings isn't entirely true. But I guess I gotta accept their comments cuz I've got nothing to hide. I don't need to explain myself that's why I'm not talking to anyone about it. If you were to ask me, I'll say. If not, why should I even bother clearing the mess and proving myself that I'm innocent that others have gotten me? The more I wanna prove, the more people will think that I did something wrong. And these misunderstandings or negative perception about me will get worst.

At first, all I thought was about misunderstandings but as time pass gradually, I guess it ain't anymore? What I felt was that you developed the hatred for me for something I never did. Maybe you might think that I'm bullshitting and I just want people to sympathize me.. Why would I even want to do that? If you're talking about understanding, then lets just forget about it. No point saying that I don't understand you or you don't understand me. We both don't understand each other at all.

And I know you're a person who loves to win? Then I'll let you win gloriously. You won, not because I admitted all of my doings, that's just cuz you don't matter to me anymore and giving in to everything you said or did doesn't concern me at all from now on. You won, because I'm tired of everything. You won, because I'm so sick of hearing the stories about me over and over again from others.

Since things has already turned so sour and nothing can be done, I'm just gonna end this thing. I ain't gonna wish you the best of luck because I'm not that magnanimous to wish someone who tries to break things up in my life and I strongly think that you don't deserve my blessings. I guess you don't want my blessings too. Haha.

All I need to say is I've seen through you. After a month of dumb hopes thinking it will turn out well.. I simply just made a joke out of myself. I blame myself for the stupidity. And I don't blame you for saying things about me because the mouth is yours and don't worry I ain't gonna talk shits about you like you do.

I guess, my main focus now is to be happy and get my diploma. And I made the right choice in ending everything! :)

XLB buffet; Sunday

XLB buffet with my Joogwees all the way at HV! Awesome!
Call me sua ku but its my first time at HV!
Eat eat eat and laugh laugh laugh.
Chilled somewhere near Kay's place and got a big surprise for her!
Muahahahahaha!
Rock on babe! <3

Love them girls. <3

Why not?

2012's joke of the year.

There's a limit to everything.

I've always thought that ignorance is bliss. But now, I guess it isn't anymore? Because the more I ignore whatever shits, things just gets worst because that particular person thinks that its alright since I am keeping quiet about it.

You know I can't take it anymore. Everyone who knows me well enough knows how bad my temper is and I can get really really nasty and shows no sympathy for anyone. But for this situation, I kept quiet and ignored every shits you're saying about me because I want to keep you as my friend, hoping that things will turn out well again. But no? You continue all these shits of yours. When will you just shut up and be happy?

I don't get it. What are you intentions?

Updates

Just a short update before I proceed on to my assignments again. :( Been so stressed out for the past few weeks cuz the assignments are never ending. What a torturous July for everyone of us. Sigh. It's okay cuz it's gonna be over soon and I'll be starting IPP in August. That's when everyone is separated into different companies. I don't want. :( Gonna be missing my table's girls so much. They are the ones who always bring so much laughter to me in school.

Okay, school's aside.

Met up with Joogwees last Sunday and needless to say. So much love.

Nice catch up. Can't wait for our graduation trip!!!! 

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Random thoughts.

Sometimes I really feel that I'm the luckiest girl in the world. Really. Although I'm not showered with gifts but I'm definitely showered with love, care and concern. That's what everyone need, I suppose. 

I'm really grateful for whatever is happening in my life now. Really. :)

Blessed

Things are slowly picking up on track and I can proudly say that I got over it since about 1 month plus ago.

Although things are a little fucked up few months back. Or rather few weeks back, I'm proud to say that I don't give a damn anymore. :)

You know, I always remind myself that things will eventually get better when you don't put too much thoughts into it. You just gotta take things easy and you'll definitely lead a happier life. Although its not gonna be the happiest of the happiest life that you will get, but well, having that tiny pinch of happiness is more than enough isn't it? Maybe I am just that easy to be content with what I have.

Haha, I take that as a good point of me though. :P

For the past 7 months, I've been blogging about my emotions. The ups and downs of my emotions.. Now, things are final-o-ly back on track, I feel that I should be blogging more about my life, rather than the negative emotions that I made myself suffer every single time.

Haha, now, can you feel the happiness in me?

Saying that I'm happy is definitely an understatement. What words shall I use to replace happy? Hmmm.. I feel blessed in every way. In every single way.. :)

Thank you to those people who brought me back on track although it hurts me big time.

Thank you C. :)

Jogwees "excursion"

JB trip with my girls during the last week of school before our term break starts.

Awesome time spent together.

So glad to have them in my life.

As usual eat, shop and filled with so much fun and laughter. <3

I miss EMRS days so much. :( 

We will have dinner almost every day and spending our time together everyday.

Now we are all so busy with our school work and projects. =/

What's more is that we are all in different class. Finding time to meet up is so difficult now. 

Anyway, super looking forward to our Sunday dinner!! <3 <3

JOGWEES, I AM SERIOUS ABOUT SAVING UP FOR THE BKK TRIP!!!!!