I'm tired. Really tired. So tired mentally and physically.

I wanted to share but I don't know how to. I've been on a roller coaster ride these days and I really couldn't take it anymore.

One moment I'm happy and the other moment I'm really sad and depressed. I blamed myself for whatever is happening. The cold wars, the arguments... And I'm so afraid to be losing a friend like you that I feel so lost and empty headed wherever I go. I don't feel happy at all. I try to put these thoughts behind me but I just can't.

Some times I wonder, if I didn't come into the picture will things be happier for everyone of us?

No one to talk to about these shits.. No one.

I guess leaving is the best thing to bring the happiness back to everyone.