Hurt

Did you even spare a thought of how I would feel when you said all these things?

Everyone make mistakes.. So do you and I.. But just because of that mistake that I made, you condemned me.

Do you even feel how I felt when I heard your conversation you had? It was so hurtful you know. It was so damn freaking hurtful that I cannot stop crying.

I supported you through your ups and downs.. I give you all my best to help you.. But in the end, what did I freaking get in return? I felt betrayed. I am disappointed in you. I really am. I would never have thought that you will do this. It just hurts me so much that I don't even know how to react but just walk away quietly.

I'm only human.. I'm trying my best to be the best that you guys wanted. But all I get was constant negative remarks that I couldn't take it anymore. I don't know how to carry on anymore.

I'm just so fucking sad..

And I hate what I did in the past.

A sense of achievement

I've been teaching for close to 6 months already. Was pretty afraid that I'm not up for it initially because you know.. I don't really like kids.

But.. This job made me discover another side of me. A love for teaching. That ouh yeah feeling you get when your students did well. I've got this boy who was pretty weak in English and it made him unable to understand the science question well. FYI, I'm teaching Science and Math.

During his CA1 he did pretty jia lat lah.. :( Was pretty disappointed with my student's marks. Ok lah not really but most of them only borderline pass. There's two that scored 9 and 10 out of ten. So the boy was a borderline pass student. And I was thinking, cannot like that already.. Must give them homework (used to not give them homework).

I keep drilling them with science whenever I'm at the centre. Gave them lots of work to do until finally CA2 results out.. My boy got 10/10 lehh!!!! Wa super happy for him.

That sense of achievement for me and him.. I really super happy.

Those who need science tuition, please come look for me! Wahhahahaha!!!

SA 2 coming!!!

LET'S ALL WORK HARD!!

Hopefully my students will all get B+ to A*!

p/s: My students no show respect to me one but can tell they love me. whahahaha! :P

Happy 2014!

OMG!

The last post was like what? 2013?!

Hello and welcome to 2014.

2014 is treating me well thus far. Left with one more trimester and I'm officially done with school. Hooooray! Meaning I'm graduating soon. It ain't easy taking degree man... Work plus school, sigh..

Just gotta pull through this phase and I'm out and done with books.

My old baby. 

Some 'me' time

Hi guys!

Finally I've gotten some alone time these past few days. Done with both of my assignments and exams are coming!!! :( Oh nozzzz.. 

Exams that are dreaded the most. Tons of writing to do and have to really read up. Needless to say its all write and write. :( 

Gonna work so hard!!

Been sick for about a week! Damn the immune system always gone wrong. Finally feeling better and the phlegm is gone. 

Celebrated Kiki's 8th birthday on November. Bought him a doggy cake!! Super cuteeeeee together with his party hat. Hehe.

Love of my life. 

Stress - OVER!

I've been feeling really stress for the past few days. The essay topic is so difficult and I practically spent my entire week working on it but gotten it all wrong when my tutor guided us through. :( My tutorial was on last Wednesday and the dateline I set for myself was on Sunday but the submission dateline is on 25/11. I wanted to follow my guidelines strictly so that I've got time to edit and improve.

After knowing that I'm actually not on the right track, I freaked out. Literally. Panic attack again, hands and feet turned cold. :( Heart was thinking 'DIE LIAO DIE LIAO OMGGGG.....'. Felt so stressed, stupid and useless!!! So I spent my remaining 4 days working on it day and night and finally done everything up on Sunday night! I emailed my tutor my essay for him to vet through..

In my heart, I'm thinking 'Confirm a lot of things do wrong and need to edit a lot plus like a lot of things never add in. And i exceeded my word limit and cut out on a lot of things I deem important'. In short, I'm not confident with my work even though I managed to stick to my dateline. I've never felt so insecure and aimless for my school work before. NEVER. I panic attack once again. But I was thinking, since I sent an email to my tutor to vet through my essay, I STILL GOT TIME TO EDIT AND IMPROVE. And, that made me feel better.

I waited for his reply.. Patiently..

And TODAY while I'm at work... I got an email.. DENG DENG DENG!

It's from my tutor and he said my work is the best thus far. And I'm all good for submission. YIPPIE YAY! A relieve. A HUGE ONE. I'm so happy!!!!! But I wanna be the best! I wanna get a distinction!! And I shouldn't be so 'ya-ya' about it cuz there's always room for improvement! :D And now, I know I'm on the right track, I can start to add in a few more things. Heehehehehe. OMG, I know its nothing to be happy about.. But to me this is very important and I'm feeling so proud of myself. Mom always look at me like very heart pain like that.. Everyday tell me "You ok or not. Don't know then ask your classmate or teacher la. See your face like very stress leh.." <3 br="" nbsp="">

My face now is as happy when Kiki is planting kisses on me. LURVE!

Anyway, just wanna be thankful for your time and effort to keep reminding me to relax and don't stress myself too much. :P Without you, I think I would have gone berserk. Hehehehe. Thxya! 

And, got into an accident just two weeks ago. You see all the bad things come at one go. But luckily everyone is fine and no one's hurt. Need to really go pray pray for keeping us safe. We were only by a few inches to the right and the car would have just make us become roti prata. Luckily we aren't all the way out! Really lucky. 

Ok what else..

I think that's all? Yup! 

HAPPY TUESDAY EVERYONE. HE'S JUST TOO CUTEEEEEEE! :D :D